Before I Turn — Crux

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I wake up and I’m sitting upon
The  edge of a chair with no light to shine
My  eyes adjust to the darkness and feel for a sign
My arms are locked in close and I can’t feel a thing
I clench my jaw till my face starts to sting
«Decisions,  decisions, you’ve got one more to make
Just  one more life for you to selfishly take»
I’m just an empty host, watch as I fall
She’s  just a vixen, conning me to end it all

Take me, leave me out to dry
Be my aggressor, tell me not to cry
Heaven turn me into a thrall
Give  me the courage to end it all

Time begins to haunt me as I
Focus on the depths of the click
The clock hands wrap around my neck
To show me all the pain I inflict
Please tell me if you lived
Would you say that it’s true?
Would you still love me as the mother
Or the lover I once knew?

She’s just too real to me
She’s just a fucking dream
She rests inside of my mouth
And makes me bite my tongue, the blood comes rushing out
Draining, draining, the blood drains away
Dying, dying, I’m dying today
Feeling, feeling, I’m feeling alive
Devil, devil, I give you my life

Take me, leave me out to dry
Be my aggressor, tell me not to cry
Heaven turn me into a thrall
Give me the courage to end it all
Take me, leave me out to dry
Be my aggressor, tell me not to cry
Heaven turn me into a thrall
Give me the courage to end it all

«Darkness overtakes the room
No sight, no sound, nobody
As I perspire I feel the cold chill of sweat
Slide down my body, slicing me like a frozen blade
The room, although enclosed
Gains the presence of a frigid wind nearing me
It’s grim, it’s deathly, it’s beautiful
My tongue rests between my teeth
As I hesitate to lock my jaw shut
The frigid presence wraps around me like motherly apathy
«Clench your jaw shut, it will all be over soon
No more pain, no more agony
No more living with the immense guilt
That I have inflicted on you
Do it my son, I swear that you’ll die»